Cracked doors. There’s no easy decision made when you have cracked doors.
The Lord has a path & plan marked out for His children. There could be many paths & plans at different times through out my life but I know one thing…they are all done for my learning, growth & obedience. Everything I experience is a growth opportunity.
This is the thing about a cracked door. I get pretty sure God is getting ready to move. I can sense it. I don’t know all the details but it’s definitely all around. I can pray & pray but no matter what I have to wait on His timing & his plan. My default is to over think & I’m pretty sure I’ve missed many paths that had been laid out for me. I took detours
It’s so easy to sense something is on the horizon & to take a step around God with the self centered attitude of “Don’t worry God, I’ve got this one”. As if He was worried…worried about me getting in the way is more like it 😉
Waiting is hard & my own ideas & plans can tend to become my focus. I’ll struggle with the “oh I know what it is Lord…you want me to do this” & off I go. I never waited for Him. I did it with my own desires, understanding & timing.
Then there’s the “this happened & I know it just has to be a sign from God because it’s exactly what I want”. Hold up, again that’s leaning on my own understanding. I can want something so much that I look for things to validate that & call it the Lord’s prompting.
In those moments my focus is inward instead of outward & upward toward Him.
First & foremost is committed prayer, staying in scripture & waiting…ugh…the waiting. I’m learning instead of dreading the waiting that I need to see it as God working. He may be working something out in me. He might be working out some things in another person. I have no idea because I’m not God – I don’t see all or know all. Acting as if I do places me smack dab in front of God. That’s not ok at all & can extend the waiting period altogether or worse yet…completely close off an opportunity. He is the Lord of my life-not the other way around.
I think there are times He does let me go ahead on my own. He’s patient & will let me learn from the same scenario for as long as it takes. He’ll wait until I realize what I’m doing or what I’m supposed to be learning. He waits for my human thinking to slow down long enough to hear the Spirit’s leading.
So back to the cracked doors. Doors of opportunity or change, aka paths, are ajar. Cracked open just enough that it has my attention & I’m wondering if I’m supposed to walk through. The problem is there’s more than one. Which one(s), Lord, which one(s)?
It sure would be easier if the doors not cracked open by God would slam shut. Or if the ones He did crack would open wide. It would be so much easier. I think that’s the point. It’s not always supposed to be easy. I was never meant to do any of this on my own.
Toss in the cracked doors that stop me in my tracks….”Lord, I don’t want that door open….I think that one might be a mistake…I’m not equipped for that one…that is not what I had planned….Um, not gifted with that either…What?! I can’t do that”. I think those doors are huge obedience testers….Will you trust me or will you go back to your comfort zone. Obedience is saying yes to the areas I feel weak in. It’s saying yes despite having to be vulnerable. It’s trusting Him instead of myself. That’s obedience.
Prayer, seeking wise counsel, reading His Word, waiting, being willing to be obedient, being Ok with not having all the answers…there are tons of things I can be doing until some of these cracked doors finally shut.
I can’t forget that I have a very real enemy as well. He would love for me to walk through a cracked door that God never opened. It takes my attention & focus off of Kingdom Work. I could stay busy all my tent-dwelling days with busy work. I’ve already done that more times than I can count.
I was created to be a doer. It’s a blessing at times & a hindrance. I have been working on measuring my “doing”. Am I doing it for me or for the Lord? I mean really doing it for the Lord, hands down or should I say hands up in praise 😉
Those cracked doors. I’d love to walk up to them & shut them or even take a peek inside 🙂
Romans 12:2, 12
Psalm 139:1-6, 23-24
Psalm 25:4-5 Show me the path where I should walk, O Lord; point out the right road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you.