I could spend a lifetime pondering things! I pray, I seek, I try, I think & then I do it all over again. The problem is that sometimes I allow myself to stay stuck. The pondering takes over & before you know it weeks have turned into months. Enough, I say, enough!
There is no guarantee on tomorrow. There is today. This moment. Only God knows how many days we have on earth. I know this truth & yet I can so easily take my eyes off of it & get pulled back into wasting time. Cemented in place attempting to figure things out in my own understanding. That is not what being an obedient follower of Christ looks like. Ugh!
I’ll be honest. I struggle with “not good enough” thinking. I’m usually my biggest critic. What I forget is that God has equipped me with specific gifts. He didn’t create me & then declare, ” not good enough”. That’s the worlds message. That’s the enemy’s lie.
Ephesians 6: 10-18 is pretty clear. We have an enemy that prowls around & we are to put on the Whole Armor of God!
The truth I need to grasp onto is that I can’t hold two things tightly. They will get a loose or firm hold, but not a tight grasp. I could have more strength if I had both hands on the same thing.
In order to tightly cling to Jesus & Gods Word, I have to release my grip on the world.
There comes a point in time that each of us have to decide what we love more. Jesus or the world. Our own opinions & thinking or the truths found in scripture. I’m not saying it’s easy. Change & obedience is hard. Our own fleshly desires are our biggest hurdles.
So I’m trying to focus more on scripture & less on myself. Philippians 4: 6-9 is aiming straight at me. Ponder is nothing more than a form of worry. I may not get all the answers I want in my timing but I can have peace while I wait. What I have planned for my life & what God has planned might not be the same thing and that’s ok!
It’s time to step aside, completely, with both feet & let the Lord lay out my path.